Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Resentment

I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment
I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

[Bridge:]
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying can't stop crying can't stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's had half of me
How could you lie

~Beyonce

Thursday, September 8, 2011

My Valentine

A friend of mine years ago played this song for me. He said that it reminded him of me.



Sometimes at night I can not sleep
I think of you with revering
But like an ancient melody
You're beautiful but melancholy
Girl if I could
Don't you know I would
Take the pain away from

My Valentine
Tell me why
Why you never smile

What can I do
To get through to you
My funny Valentine
I'd do anything just to see you smile

I know obsession is a sin
But I feel you underneath my skin
Are you the prize that I'll never win
Because you haunt me like a thousand violins

But I won't give up, no no
Until I earn your trust
Cuz you're a part of me
And it's my destiny to fly away with

My Valentine
Tell me why
Why you never smile

What can I do
To get through to you
Tell me you're

My Valentine
Tell me why
Why you never smile

What can I do
To get through to you
My funny Valentine
I'd do anything just to see you smile

Smile (To see)
Smile (Your smile)
Smile (Your touch, your smile)
To see (Your face) you smile (Your smile)
Smile (Your smile, your touch)
Smile (Your smile, your smile, your face)
Why won't you smile (Why won't)
Smile (You smile)
Smile (Why won't you smile)
I'll make you smile (Oh, why won't)
Smile (you smile)
Smile

~Carl Thomas